salvation

Have you ever fallen in sleep with the radio beside you? under a bright table-desk lamp or even in people noise? If so, you maybe be too tired with your eye bag grow under your eyes. So, I am not I tend to sleep well by hearing mechanic sounds swing by my old fan till now I strive for cold just to listen to ‘sound of wind’ by it.

It was a bad sight .I can observe human with such habit maybe those movie or music fans or just simply a sign of scare. They want the sound to bring them into dream; I don’t know about it for sure since the day I always seeing daddy switch on the radio and tuned in some old song channel. The old song melody sometimes lead people to some scene with feel of horrify may appeared, we listen and keep the feeling into sleep the next day we repeat and experience again.
I think daddy is worrying about his body that always in diarrhea condition and whenever he has a meal he will have big lost out in toilet.He insist himself to have benign tumor .We know when the day he with the cigarettesssss.
The day you longing for twilight now has become a horror in your day by telling me you may not seeing me turn into someone.For always your girl.

Sometimes,I want to shield myself from worrying about them.For once he ignore his health but now terror seize him.He drink smelly vinegar made by mom and other organic product.I am so scare to face him and hide my love from him. I know they wont be any cure unless he faces it and with doctor consult.But if thing getting worsen ,the previous method never work.The best medicine is God salvation, he wants to listen gospel that I can feel so.

People sick and they seek thing relate to soul,exists after death,medicine ,meaning of life etc….So sorry I am a rude child I don’t know how to express the almighty God to you,I just pray by cant doing anything just wait you back from work .I will weep for my life if both of you left without receiving God’s salvation(for my friends too)..

Sis telling me for no reason I rebel to parents at this stage but sometimes my temper turn bad when staying with both menopause parents where you all stay away from home now and future. Do you all even know that, I have to tuned in the radio for falling asleep now..Sometimes my heart was empty and start panic;it was a dreadful thing.But God is always there..cheers up paris lullaby..

End of every weekend,end of night it always full with anger and sadness…

(it would be crappy things in somebody mind or maybe not if they saw this but it was a scene I would likely ever forget that the dark cloud gather in a moment with tears slide silently down my cheeks)

Some verse for parislullaby :Surely God is my salvation;
I will trust and not be afraid.(isaiah12:2)

By the times that cloud had slipped away...:)