stupidly

Just wish to jotted down some silly stuff..

During December,still some part time job going on.I received a roadshow to sell some silly stuff on street make her deeply depressed where she run away afterward,not until now she unable to get her 50 bucks.

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There is lot’s of ompetition out there where she cant really talk and present herself.It makes her sad for some moment as she has tried for several times.It just din worked out!However,she continue with it.

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Before end of 2010,for the first time she let go her study she went for clubbing with some party look at sunway euphoria.For sake of work,she admit she do really enjoyed the moment when she  step on the dancing stage,also hanging around with crowd by painting on their body .But,then i realized how danger that place was,as people drunk and take pill ..vomiting just to drowned into an unreal world.Dance ,speak all is uncontrollable.It give me a  ‘STOP’ sign before you turned to be like them.I feel so bad after I back from the club.

the glowing effect gel

again,at sunway

another fun job that i meant to...

Then I come to 2011.

s.o.s

review from june-december can be found in post.Full of fun and sweet memory to participate in new job,new God ministry and try something new..

cf-08?09?10? this post remind me on them..

I has promised my God to attend the worship on every Sunday as they are only 52 wk.I can counted the moment I absence for the service is 2-3 times while Saturday youth fellowship several times ;P.


I AM SO SORRY THAT IN 2011,I DID NOT PROMISED YOU ANYTHING!MY JESUS,I REALLY NEED YOU RIGHT NOW~I ‘M LOST AGAIN!

I have loss my voice first ever in my time,no matter how hard i shout,not even a proper word voice out.
I just realised previously how bless i 'm to have chance to praise you in worship,communicate with people surrounded me.Maybe one days,i had forgotten you but you will always there for me..I really cant imagine the future,i am pessimistic,i am coward,i am useless,i am nothing.HElp..

again..it is about her study life
Feb 2010- pretended that the class learning is going on well.


Seriously I am emotionally unstable all the time when all those rumors passed through my ear.Totally awful! The time when I realized I just cant get well with other races until it aroused their anger which I did not mean it. And also the harsh moment to get into different gang since I am late.Again,due to language barrier and personality I ended up get along with a group of nice,warm people.People may assumed they liked you and willing to talk to you but instead I know they found me serious and a nerd that hard to get along.A women instinct told me all that.Always remind myself keep on study and ignore all this.

March,lullaby lil’ bit confused with her foundation math which has been taught during Pre U for several times..on 10th,to her surprise her classmate celebrate her first ever birthday party in her life,however,she feel that the party belong to them at that moment.But she feel thankful

April,the first for her to complete her assignment with a due date and she has confront with the people that will never coorperate with her that make her extremely frustrated and throw up all the work aside.With the mission as ‘died together’!Overall,she has finished other assignment in orderly manner and passed all those small test

May,the first sem final exam is there!She studied from day to night without any delay till she has a sudden weight loss that shock those who concerned.But she just ignore about it and continue her stressful way of study when those scolding and harsh word flash in her mind again and again,sometimes,crying is possible.Give up is in her thought.

my jan 2010 review

10^th Jan 2011.It was a wonderful day after log on Utar portal with my trembling fingers where I am glad  that I could tipped up my glasses and toasted my dream after passed my foundation level in art and social science

before that...2010
10/1/2011- I am dreamed to study in a private institute in nursing and caring field although I admit I was incapable for all this.
“Everyone will die and their last destiny will be at hospital, in my hand!”For several night, I get warned by July Pre U terrible results. Not until Jan, it has come to the end of my Pre U life but I do not get passed to be eligible for Degree in nursing.I am totally lost and decided to end everything..emotionally depressed not until sis give me some encouragement

However, I am thankful to confront with such terrible situation or else I would not brave myself to go on my ‘dream’ and people no longer overlook on my ability.I may end up choosing a suffer pathway. Without hesitation,I go on to apply for the overdue jan foundation intake.At first,the school reject me and insist me to go on for May intake.Again,I have no time anymore,no matter how hard was it I have tried my damnedest, lot’s of stuff is being carried on that almost make me faint on the journey.

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Within few steps and I was there. But the truth is, I don’t even know if I’ll ever reach there ,but I’ll try my damnedest, let’s bet on that! I bet it with God at my side. Due to this encouragement where I realized choose not to give up on Him is always the best solution

cough xxxx

phew..Having spring hols..
And I get a normal cough I think..
Here some description on my cough:wet cough
Coughing alone is not actually a disease, but an indication of problems in the respiratory tract.Everybody have experienced cough with phlegm, which may be because of a common cold. A chronic cough condition with phlegm that is discolored (yellow, rusty brown, green, etc.)

My stage is greenish phlegm~~